I'm Way Too Insecure, Folks!
Bill Murray nailed it!
All my life I've had the need to be perfect, I think it's because my brother Dave WAS perfect, and I wanted to emulate him as much as possible, even though I could never come close!
After I played a high school football game and 40 classmates would tell me I did a great job, I'd be disappointed if someone I EXPECTED to say I did a great job...didn't.
So instead of being happy and satisfied, I was sad and frustrated over the one or two who remained silent.
I never considered the possibility that they may have had something pressing on their minds at the time.
Maybe their goldfish passed away, or their Ford broke down on the way to the game, or they just had a wisdom tooth pulled out! It could have been a million things that prevented them from telling me..."Great job!"
I think I expect everyone to be like me, in that I go out of my way to encourage others in their efforts to do stuff.
My motto is "you can ALWAYS find something good to say about others!"
For instance, your friend strikes out every time in a game, you can say, "you took some GOOD swings, and made some great catches in the field, my friend!"
Maybe someone sings horribly at church, but you say, "you really sang that with feeling, or you memorized all the words perfectly...well done!"
The reason I bring this up is because when I sang at church yesterday, I STILL felt bad when the ones who I thought would say "good job", said nothing. Don't get me wrong, a lot of people I respect and love were very expressive with their encouraging comments, but ones who I have complimented on their performances in the past said not a word.
Me on the inside. Well ,maybe not this bad.
All I can think (dismissing any possibilities they had more important things to worry about) is they are all jealous of me! Yeah! That must be it!
Sooooo, I wrote a little poem about it...
Jealous Of Me...Poem by Danny Maness
Why does everybody say I'm stupid,
Why does everybody say I'm dumb,
Why does everybody call me goofy,
And a dirty, lousy bum?
Why does everybody say I'm ugly,
And laugh out loud when I sing,
Why does everybody call me crazy,
When I try to sing like Queen
(Freddie Mercury)
It's because they're jealous of me,
It's because they're jealous of me,
I know they won't admit it,
And I'm sure they'll never quit it,
but it's because they're jealous of me!!
OR
I'm REALLY not that good!! Hmmm?
